Dont Judge Me

Well people...I have been on a "blog hiatus" because of my demanding work schedule, but being that im at work now not doing anything, why not write now? Anyways, I titled this blog "Dont Judge Me" for obvious reason: You dont need to judge me. So...anyone who knows me even just a lil bit can see that im a friendly, fun-going, positive thinking guy. Those who really know me know that even more...but anyway...I try to be friendly to people with whom I work with, do business with, etc...Now for someone who doesn't know me, they might make their own assumptions about what I do for a living, etc...I get labeled the "Dope Boy" all the time...why I dont know. But anyway...some of the people here at work have found me on facebook, and I added them...just because im that cool of a dude...So I become facebook friends with a certain individual, and everything is cool...this same person just started working in my building, they came from the other building...they already kinda got me thinking cause they said some off the wall type mess like "I heard about you in the other building, I heard your car is all loud, and you be coming to work with your pants hanging down...and I was like WHAT!@#$? Those that know me know I dont go anywhere lookin a mess, I dont own a pair of pants that "sag" on me. So I ignored it...casue we're all co-workers...we laugh, joke, and have a good time at work to pass time...But then one day I get a message on the Office Communicator here at work saying "You seem like a nice guy, but I looked at your facebook page, and I see you have a very wild & crazy lifestyle, and im very much into my religion & church, and I dont think we should be friends, I mean you cool though"...and im like HUH? WTF? First & foremost...I became friends with you on facebook just cause I thoguht you were cool... I actually had to take the time to go on facebook to see exactly what she was talking about. I saw pics from like almost 2 years ago when I was out partying...The last time I checked I was 28 Grown Ass Years Old. I can do what I want when I want and no one can tell me what to do. Secondly...if you are so "Deep into your religion" And "The Church" then clearly I dont need to remind you that you should be the first one to not judge anyone. Just because I go to the club and party doesn't mean I live a wreckless lifestyle. People are so quick to judge you when they think you aren't living the life you should be...There are SO many people out here that are doing a lot worse than me, killing kids, robbing folks, pushing dope, etc...I work, I have no criminal record, none of that...So what if I go out...the last time I checked she damn sure wasn't perfect. These "Church People" Kill me...its funny that the "Church People" always got something to say when we ALL know they are the worse ones...some of the biggest freaks & loosest (is that a word?) People come straight out of church...Needless to say she removed me from her facebook, which I thought was hilarious cause she still walks by & looks at me every night at work...but the lesson here is dont judge me, cause you dont know me. Why is it that because someone chooses to live their life a certain way, that they have the right to tell you how to live yours? People need to take a look in the mirror, listen twice as much as you talk, and maybe you will be ok...I should do like ricky smiley and pull a "pray-by" and run by her desk real fast while throwing some of those little green bibles at her...lol...but nah let me stop...just dont judge me if you dont know me...and for those that do know me, you also know I took it light on her...cause some of my previous blogs have buried some folks...so maybe I am becoming better at being a nice guy...lol


That is all...

Random Thought Number One...

So im sitting here at my cushy desk at work, its about 12:00am on 11/17/09... every now and then I have these random thoughts about things that I feel have been life changing events. I think about my brother more often than most people know...those that really know me know that my pops aint really about shit, so growing up around him wasnt exactly the best experience. My brother used to come around often, take me to hang out, and taught me a lot about electronics & computers. I honestly owe a lot of what I know to him, and I think about him alot. Sadly he left this world the day before my birthday in 2006. We barely communicated in the years coming towards his death, and I blame myself for not keeping in touch with those who I grew up with. I have a first cousin right now who I have not talked to in about 2+ years...I dont know why I havnt... and we were close as ever...I think about a lot of things randomly...Like sometimes I think what if I would have stayed with my fiancee and tried to work it out instead of walking away? where would I be now? What would my life be like? Theres so much to write about, and so much that people who I consider to be close dont know...Like I wake up sometimes and wonder if its just the luck I have with women, or if its just me, or I just cant seem to meet the right woman...and so many people ask me why am I single? I honestly dont know...and it bothers me that im getting older and have yet to meet anyone who wants to take life as serious as I do...I just cant seem to understand what it is about the people I meet, I've met the good ones, and of course the not so good ones, but what ive learned is that no matter where I go or who I meet, its always something wrong. I try to think that maybe its me, but then I see how these women look at life and how they are so busy or preoccupied with their lives and bullshit, they cant have time for someone like me. Maybe its the image I give off, and I by any means am not stuck up, nor am I arrogant. I think its maybe the way I treat these women...just like my good female friend told me..."If you acted like an asshole, they would love you"...but its not in my nature to be an asshole. Those who know me know im too cool for that...maybe its cause im too honest? But lying isn't my style either...who knows...I dont wanna think that im meant to be single, cause I want a nice house, a wife and a kid or two...but that dream is fading fast as the reality of the women I have met and are still meeting is setting in...

That is all...goodnight